Thursday, March 25, 2004
I got sick today, serves me right for not sleeping for almost two days, bathe even though i shouldn't, went out because of clients and there you go, the perfect formula to get sick. It's really, I mean really, really rare for me to get sick, I usually get sick once a year or none at all. As much as I want to use sickness as an alibi, I still do pretty much all of the things I usually do, but this time only slower and less effort. I edit twice as slow, I still eat alot but lesser than usual, a serving instead of four, I still go out and travel. My parents always say that I should stop "harrassing" my body, putting it over its limit wont bring any good, you just get sick. I dont believe in medicines either, simply because I grew up with less concern and attention from my parents whenever I get sick, I get well on my own, in my own time. I usually get jealous of my brother because of attention and care, maybe a factor why I cant cry as much as my eyes want to, I just cant. But then as time passes by, I come to realize why my parents didnt give me enough attention, its because my brother needed it more. Because I am strong. Because I am optimistic, but Im always late, still, I possess a positive outlook in life, but still late. Help...
"There are tears in the heart that dont reach the eyes."
-forgot where this came from- gomen
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
I cried this morning... over "Rudy"... damn! My eyes hurt...
I just read a friend's post on being late. I have the same problem and frankly, I don't know what to do cuz being late pisses me off. It makes me worry, it makes me drive like a Daytona guy which of course, could put my life a notch higher to danger levels. On one of the comments posted and i quote, "i saw this in oprah once. a certain dr. phil (i think he's always in that show) says that when you're always late, you like being late, or you don't like being early. the guy on the panel says, "no, i've tried everything in order not to be late. i don't like being late." dr. phil replies, "no. you like it. do you put your bare finger in a flame? no? because that, you do not like. you simply don't do the things you don't like." i don't know, watchutink about this dr. phil guy? you think he's making the right analogy?" And after reading what dr. phil said on addressing the problem, im beginning to think that i like being late, yeah, i think i do. now, the only question is, what matters most to me, this newly discovered satisfaction on being tardy, or simply being there on time. I've realized that this "disease" is the root of everything that's wrong in my life, I think... I'm delayed... still an undergrad... late for call times... wake up late, sleep late... finishes things late... passing things late... and realizing things late... see, all things are LATE. Dang! need to work this one out...
Thursday, March 11, 2004
Finally, a version that works. I've finally downloaded a version of Rainbow that isn't broken at the end. "This is such a wonderful place to be..."
Yey! Im happy today cuz my mom bought a fone that I can use for the mean time before I buy my "true" fone cuz technically since I got one, I havent replaced it ever since, and it was my trusty ol' 5110. Now, I'm using a 2100, NEAT! It'll be alot more wicked when my 6230 comes. wehee!!!
